This is purely personal and is down to you. Whatever you have chosen, you have gone through an acceptance or rejection process of looking at other options.
You have made your choice and now you must live with it.
Whatever you choose, give it as much energy, committment, passion and enthusiasm as you can. If you don't feel that way then you have made the wrong choice.
Don't spend your life in suspended animation because sooner or later someone will make that choice for you and you won't like it.